if these walls could talk

huh,

i just came back from ORAKEI,

my feeling was BAD.

now, i realized..

i challenged my self a lot!

the job was tough.

im not capable enough to PERFORM.
isnt it?


hey,

it's not easy to deal with young people

of different religion and social background.

i need to be patient.

thats my job as CLEM's tutor,

thats my job as ARNOLD's mentor at Manurewa Intermediate.

should i blame my self for all these negative thoughts and feeling???
yes, i shoud.
here,

i wanna blame myself for having poor skills.
the social and communication skills.
right???

argh!

and the exam is just arond the corner.
waving and waiting for me :(

huh,

am I cognitive overload??
  no, im not...coz i havent study yet.

so now,
im feeling BAD.

is there a shoulder to cry on?

yes, i have.
 ALLAH is there for me.

to listen and to accompany of.

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If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
my heart is ZERO..

that's why I am so scared..

the reality.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those days I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.

You'd know about the demons
haunting me days and night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,

If these walls could talk
they would say that; "it's all right", "relax, "never give up"


God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone,
though Im lost,

though I am frustrated of my world,
it doesnt mean I‘m on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
and ........................if only these walls could talk.




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