=(

i need some time to be in  peace

i need some time to be relax

i need some little time to smile, and laugh

i need some time for my heart to find rest.

could you tell me where can i found a kilo of calmness in the most troubling condition?

oh ALLAH, help my heart. purify my soul o ALLAH.

im returning back to you. please hold me tight.

i need YOU. i need YOUR help =(

I CANT WORK UNDER PRESSURE.
 PLEASE HELP ME. HELP ME.

DONT QUIT

hen things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
When care is pressing you down a bit --

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
Rest if you must, but don't quit.


ife is strange with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though the pace seems slow --
You may succeed with another blow.
 

ften the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.



uccess is failure turned inside out --
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit, --
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

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REMEMBER::: "Don't quit!"

its never too late

My course which i take now doesnt suit me.
since first year, i do not perform in any assignment or even examonation.
but now, i am in year 4. the course almost finish within 2 months
huh, then, i must complete my 3 months practicuum, before being posted to school.

This is nonsense, yet the truth!
I still survive in the situation which i hate most.
so can i still survive in school later?
 =(
the journey is long.

but its never too late for me.
i dont say I want to quit my study,
but after I get confirmation for my job,then I will further my study.
Escapism for the betterment.


so now?
I must finish all my assignments.
stop being a great procrastinator.

Im just old enough to become a parent,
so please show maturity in DOING work..
Please, myself.
ALL THE BEST.

waiting for the approval

after a year..
almost a year i have been waiting..
just for one. one question to be answer, as YES..

after so long i received only NO. NO. NO
 answer.. so many tears come along.
with bended knees hoping, craving for that something


and this weekend,
everything is going be answered.

i wonder whether the answer is NO again. but for me, I have enough for that NO answer.

please o ALLAH. please!

im hoping.

Again

Again,

Again

Again

keeps on moving, my self.

Keeps on.

ALL THE BEST, my self

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Almost 4 months  I reached malaysia. this transition is real HARD. its not an easy phase for me.

Adaptation needs process. New place, meeting new people.. of course leading to new, MORE challenges. I would say, sometimes i was lost. I know I was almost broken into pieces when problems keep on coming. but I am proud to say, hey.. I AM STILL ALIVE. I am not broken yet =)

.....

Its the reality.. but difficult to accept.
Its the major weakness, but difficult to change.
But life must go on.

I MUST ACCEPT

"Redhalah dengan apa yang diberi Allah untukmu, nescaya engkau menjadi orang yang paling kaya"

(Hadith Termizi)

Ridha itu berpuas hati dan merasa senang dengan ketentuanNya =)

I MUST CHANGE, OTHERWISE THE PROBLEM WOULD STILL EXIST.  ALLAH will test me in one particular problematic area until I pass that one. So, if i fail, i cant proceed to the next new problem. the conclusion here is, life is full of problem, you need to face it and keep on improving. 

ALL THE BEST, my self.

im having a real hard pain

astaghfirullah...
ataghfirullah..
astaghfirullah

aku memohon ampun padamu ya ALLAH..
atas setiap keluh kesah kesedihan, kesusahan dan musibah yang dihadapi

aku memohon ampun padamu ya ALLAH
atas salah laku dalam beramal dan berdoa padamu
atas ketidak sabaran dalam berikhtiar, harapan dan doa yang tidak dilunaskan

aku memohon ampun dan maghfirah
atas tanggungjawab yang selalu gagal disempurnakan
atas dosa dan maksiat yang tak mampu dibendung
atas kegagalan demi kegagalan ya ALLAH

astaghfirullah..

DAN ALHAMDULILLLAH..

kerana masih aku memberi rasa manisnya iman dan cinta pada mu
kerana masih menghadiahkan aku secebis kesempatan untuk bangkit dari segala kesedihan, keperitan, dan kegagalan ini

alhamdulillah, atas musibah ini.. musibah yang makin mendekatkan aku pada-mu ya ALLAH
jadikan aku..
jadikan aku hambaMU yang terus tenang, kuat dan sabar untuk mentaati segala perintah dan amanahmu..

.......

Untuk sahabat dan teman yang sedang cuba memahami kondisi diri ini,
Untuk teman dan sahabat yang selalu disayangi ALLAH.. yang ALLAH membuatkan kalian kasih padaku..

JAZAKILLAHU KHAIRAN KATSEERA/ JAZAKAALLLAHU KHAIRAN KATSEERA untuk doa yang selalu dipanjatkan, dan untuk pertolongan yang dihulurkan..

doakanlah diri ini agar ALLAH memberi kekuatan untuk redha.. untuk melihat hikmah yang tersembunyi atas kesakitan, kesedihan dan musibah yang dihadapi

doakanlah juga agar penyakit ini segera sembuh, agar mak ceoat pulih dari kemalangan, agar atuk dan nenek kembali bertenaga.. agar kami dapat menunaikan segala amanah yang haru dipenuhi.. untuk kami mampu membahagia dan menyempurnakan hidup insan-insan disekeliling kami

doakanlah juga aku bertemu insan yang ikhlas menyayangi, memahami, membimbing  dan membantu diriku...

doakan aku segera dipermudahkan bertemu jodohku, dia yang mampu memudahkan aku dekat padaMU, dia yang mampu memberi aku dan keluargaku merasai bahagia dan indahnya hidup ini.. insyaALLAH.

wallahualam

aku,
insan yang lemah kerdil
yang tidak pernah sempurna..



doakanlah aku