so called rainbow HEART

                                             Have u ever seen a RAINBOW?
                                               

 Today,

my heart is just like the RAINBOW..

is it beutiful?

 subhanaALLAH, yes, it is :)

my beloved brother once said:

"you can do it. I know u can, and u always can. u have beaten many hard obstacles before and i believe that this time u can overcome it nicely like u always did..insyaAllah. yg pntingnya kena banyak bersabar dan percaya pd Allah, ok?"

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the rainbow comes after the rain, isnt it??..

here, i am.

thank you ALLAH,

for giving  such wonderful life..

kakak belajar dari EISYA

 

 Eisya,

jazakillah khair sebab eisya buat kakak kuat tadi.

tadi kan,

kakak telefon rumah.

eisya cerita 

eisya dapat markah bagus sangat.

eisya cerita lagi, eisya dapat banyak hadiah dan naik pentas..

eisya  tentu hepi kan,

 eisya dapat hadiah alat tulis, colour pensil dua kotak besar dan banyak lagi hadiah lain.

kakak tahu eisya suke menulis, dan mewarna..

tentu sekali itu yang eisya melompat2 girang..

kakak tahu.

cerita eisya tu,

buat kakak semangat nak belajar sikit..

ish2, eisya pun tahu belajar itu penting..

mungkin cita-cita eisya tak seperti cita-cita kakak yang BESAR untuk UMMAH..

tapi semangat eisya lebih besar dari semangat kakak.

itu yang kakak kena belajar dari eisya.

lagi,

tadi..kakak dengar...

mak suruh eisya doa kat kakak..

kakak dengar suara eisya sayup-sayup..

eisya cakap,

"ya ALLAH ya tuhanku..bagi kakak cepat sehat dan......................."

kakak tahu eisya ikhlas berdoa untuk kakak..

eisya sangat TAAT.

mak suruh doa,

terus eisya angkat tangan doakan untuk kakak  kan?

masa eisya ajak mak solat jemaah asar tadi,

mak suruh eisya solat dulu..

sebab mak tengah berborak-borak dengan kakak soal cerita HATI kakak.

kemudian,

mak cerita pada kakak tentang eisya.

kata mak,

"Eisya memang suka berdoa. kalau waktu subuh, eiti, epan dah siap-siap nak g sekolah pas solat, eisya masih lagi atas sejadah, angkat tangan berdoa..entah apa yang didoakan lama sangat...

kakak dapat bayangkan itu, sbb eisya mmg seorang anak dan adik yang solehah.

sebab itu, ALLAH sayang eisya.

ALLAH selalu bagi apa yang eisya nak.

dan semua orang sayang eisya.

mak ayah, kakak, abang asyraf, kak tik, eiti epan pun sayang eisya,

cikgu2 kat sekolah pun sayang eisya kan..

terus menjadi solehah..

moga eisya layak sampai ke syurga ALLAH..

itu kebahagiaan hakiki, adik.

kalau eisya nak tahu,

masa mak cerita itu...

kakak menangis..

terima kasih kerana ingatkan kakak bahawa BERDOA pada ALLAH itu penting.

ini pengajaran terbesar yang kakak dapat hari ini.

andai eisya yang masih sangat muda,

tahu hikmah PENGHARAPAN pada ALLAH..

kakak ini harusnya lagi SEDAR tentang itu,

jazakillah khair sayang :)

tak sabar nak jumpa eisya akhir tahun nanti..

insyaALLAH...

 

"Dan Musa berkata:"Wahai kaumku, apabila kamu beriman kpd Allah, maka bertawakkallah kpdNYA, jika kamu benar2 orang muslim(berserah diri). lalu mereka berkata: "Kepada Allahlah kami bertawakkal. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau jadikan kami fitnah bg kaum yg zalim.dan selamatkanlah kami dgn rahmatMU dari orang kafir" [Yunus; 10: 84-86]

ALLAH knows.

 

 

I asked for strength,

...and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for wisdom,

... and God gave me problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity,

... and God gave me brain and brawn to work.

I asked for courage,

... and God gave me danger to overcome.

I asked for love,

... and God gave me troubled people to help.

I asked for favours,

... and God gave me opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted,

... I received everything I needed.

 

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  ALLAH knows when you are tired

and discouraged from fruitless effort,

ALLAH knows how hard you have tried,

when you've cried

so long your heart is in anguish,

ALLAH has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold

and time has passed you by,

ALLAH is waiting for you.

When nothing makes sense

and you are confused or frustrated,

ALLAH has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter

and you find traces of hope,

ALLAH has indeed whispered to you.

"Keeps on moving, coz I'm with You" 

 

if these walls could talk

huh,

i just came back from ORAKEI,

my feeling was BAD.

now, i realized..

i challenged my self a lot!

the job was tough.

im not capable enough to PERFORM.
isnt it?


hey,

it's not easy to deal with young people

of different religion and social background.

i need to be patient.

thats my job as CLEM's tutor,

thats my job as ARNOLD's mentor at Manurewa Intermediate.

should i blame my self for all these negative thoughts and feeling???
yes, i shoud.
here,

i wanna blame myself for having poor skills.
the social and communication skills.
right???

argh!

and the exam is just arond the corner.
waving and waiting for me :(

huh,

am I cognitive overload??
  no, im not...coz i havent study yet.

so now,
im feeling BAD.

is there a shoulder to cry on?

yes, i have.
 ALLAH is there for me.

to listen and to accompany of.

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If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
my heart is ZERO..

that's why I am so scared..

the reality.

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those days I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.

You'd know about the demons
haunting me days and night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,

If these walls could talk
they would say that; "it's all right", "relax, "never give up"


God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone,
though Im lost,

though I am frustrated of my world,
it doesnt mean I‘m on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
and ........................if only these walls could talk.




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Hope

                       

Hope is a word
that every
hurting heart
understands.

Hope shines
brighter than
the brightest star
on the darkest night.



Faith is bigger than the highest mountain.
And God is greater than any obstacle in your path.
Anything can be accomplished by those who fully
put their hearts into it.



The time to start is now
the place to start is here.

ALL THE BEST!!

 

There Is Always A Good Side

 

Everything depends on the way you look at things.
View every problem you encounter as an opportunity.
There is always a good side to every situation.

The optimist sees an opportunity in every misfortune.
The pessimist sees misfortune in every opportunity.

The optimist sees the doughnut,
the pessimist sees the hole.

You can develop success from every failure.
Discouragement and failure are two stepping stones to success.

No other elements can do so much for you
if you're willing to study them and make them work for you.

  

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, THINK POSITIVELY!!

Everytime you look at thing negatively, you are just wasting your time and chances ahead.

                                               

SAY IT LOUD... YOU ARE A POSITIVE THINKER!!!

MINGGU EXAM UOA.

“Janganlah hendaknya kecintaan anda terhadap sesuatu itu membuatkan anda menjadi lupa dan kebencian anda terhadap sesuatu itu membuatkan anda menjadi hancur”-

~Saidina Umar Ibnul Khattab~

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Minggu ini,

bermulalah minggu sibuk...

minggu berhempas pulas, memerah otak,

bermandi keringat..

minggu  detik-detik sukar sebentar DUNIA

= FINAL YEAR exam

selamat belajar semua.

jangan jadi robot sudah.

belajar-belajar juga.

ALLAH jangan lupa.

belajar-belajar juga,

AL QURAN jangan tinggal.

itu teman, itu bekalan.

belajar-belajar juga,

Qiam kena jaga.

itu kekuatan.

belajar-belajar juga,

senyum manis,

itu kebahagiaan.

selamat berusaha pelajar university of Auckland.

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Ingat ini:

“Sesungguhnya ALLAH tidak memandang kepada rupa parasmu dan harta kamu, tapi DIA memandang kepada hatimu dan amalan kamu”

-HR Muslim-

BELAJAR,

IKHLASKAN NIAT.

LURUSKAN NIAT.

TEGUHKAN TEKAD.

TAJAMKAN USAHA.

hasil...biarlah ALLAH dan URUSANNYA.

wallahu'alam.